Well, on a good note, my daughter is in town visiting. She's staying with me for a month. I put her in a summer camp at a local Art School type thing. She'll get some great hands on experience with all types of fun artsy stuff! I'm really glad she's here, and am already dreading the day she leaves back to Florida.

That said, I've been feeling kinda shitty lately. For some reason I feel really distant and alienated, even from those few people I'm really close to, and those I'm just getting to know. There's this pit, this empty chasm in the middle of my chest, and I'd be rather elated if it would just fuck off... it's keeping me from opening up, or from feeling much of anything but a mild form of isolation and despair lately. Bleh...

...I could redirect these feelings into some artwork, but I haven't got the energy. I could go take some photos, but I can't afford the camera I want. I could get a dog, but I can't afford that either. I could whine some more like a little bitch, but who's listening anyway? LMFAO...

Anyway, this week I'm gonna start hitting the gym again if it's the last fucking thing I do. I'm sick of saying I'm gonna do it and then making every excuse not to go. I'm going. Starting this week. And nothing is gonna stop me. Fuck... grrrr.... and if I do it and stick to it, I'm rewarding myself with a full sleeve tattoo for my left arm at the end of the year. If anyone has any ideas for a theme for my sleeve, toss 'em my way.

Anyway, enough of my bullshit for today.

/endRant